Look at what I found on the afternoon of the Summer Solstice, right outside my door…..A fully intact lovely snakeskin, not discarded but gifted to me, I know this for sure. A powerful message for me. And a validation of what I have been doing these past few months, since the last time I posted here. Shedding the old to embrace the new. Still loving the past me, the skin I inhabited, appreciating all its gifts and how it protected me. How it sometimes defined me.
No accident that this gift arrived on the Solstice. The longest day of the year, a huge turning point in the life of this planet. A day filled with so many spiritual connections. And its always my favorite day of the year. I’m a sun worshipper!
I’ve moved into my next chapter. Hence my absence from this blog. Not abandoned, just a hiatus…….while I gathered my goals and labored and played and made and dreamt and cherished and prayed and nurtured and taught and listened and launched…….
I have big plans! And they will be revealed little by little over the next year. If you have read this far, THANK YOU, and I hope you’ll continue to witness and perhaps join me in this journey. If nothing else, I will try to be as authentic as possible and share the missteps as well as the triumphs. At least it should be worth a few smiles or laughs.
So my first order of business is to present myself as I truly am. To put my money where my mouth is! I’m always preaching about how we should all accept our genuine selves, our physical “shortcomings”, our age, our whatever. But the doing is so much harder than the preaching!!!!! Believe it or not, I have obsessed over changing my Facebook profile pic for the past 3 days!!!! I took this selfie right after I had my haircut, still wet, on a gloomy rainy day in my car. I thought, what the heck, the old profile pic is 5 years old. I have aged. I have gained weight. I have changed in oh so many ways. And while the physical ways may not be what is desired in our media culture — actually they are considered to be the 2 biggest turn-offs, weight and age — I really truly do love the ME that is here today a zillion times more than the 2008 version. Because I have learned sooooooooooooooooo much. And I am so much clearer on who I am and how I want to be and the impact I want to leave on this world.
So what is it I’ve been doing since I stopped regularly posting here back in March? Well for one thing I’ve been shepherding my youngest child toward independence. No small task. He requires well, let’s just say, a lot of extra parenting. Every milestone with him (graduation, job hunting, drivers license) is a MAJOR accomplishment. Here he is having fun on one of our nightly driving lessons. And yes, more gray hairs have emerged….
Internally, I have been doing lots of work. Lots of soul-tending. Lots of illumination. I have taken some very profound soul journeys and met and re-kindled some very dear and important-to-me kindred spirits. Not accidental connections, not random. Fully intentional. Validating. Earth-shifting. I realize what is possible, and that what is possible has always been within me. Most importantly I realize that I want to make this chapter, at this later stage of life, really mean something, to me. To the original authentic me. To acknowledge and honor the dreams that have been inside me for over 50 years. Shedding the old skin, the old much-beloved labels — mom, wife, architect, daughter, friend, creative — not discarding but making way for a new meaning for those labels. Defined on my own terms. A shiny fresh new skin…..
See, this is how I know that the shed skin was not a random occurrence. Because I met this beauty a couple hours later, 50 feet away, as I was walking barefoot along the path. She came out to greet me and walked, well slithered, along side me for a while. At my pace. There was no repulsion by me, no aggression by her. So yeah, I noticed. A powerful totem. OK, sledgehammer from above! I get it! TRANSFORMATION!!!!!! Gosh, I can be dense, but not this time.
One aspect of my big new plans is starting a business with my daughter, Christina.
Actually, it would be many aspects and she would actually be my step-daughter, to be accurate. We are making things. We are starting to sell things. We are going to gather women together and share the blessings of our world. We are going to teach and learn. We are going to help girls and women. And men. We want to help change the world. Big dreams. Stay tuned.
Thank you for visiting Lisaville!!!! I’d love to hear your thoughts or comment….. it REALLY means a lot to me and its so nice of you!!!! I’d especially love to hear about any transformations you’ve been making, any new shifts, any shedding. And I’ll leave you with this gorgeous photo of a bloom from a 60+year-old rhododendron tree. See, beauty knows no age limitations…….